thanks to everyone..yall are great.and yes..mom has a great group of friends who will help,and my sister and brother inlaw are good at that stuff...i suck at it..so i know they will step in...funny thing...my dad and i were close..enjoyed alot of things together..yet we faught like hell..more days with he and i ended in fights than not,and i thought id be relieved when it came...i also thought my sister and mom would just lose it..thought they would be inconsolable...to my own personal shock..my mom and sister have been very strong and right there,ya know?..but when moms best friend showed up..shirley walked in..and mom got up and they hugged and what have you and didnt break down...shirls husband Ed,who is always a tough guy too,couldnt come in the house at all..dad was on the livingroom floor sheet over him..but a pillow under his head,and face uncovered ,which is now considered to be a respect thing.. i did have to ask the ambulance guy to put the pillow under him and close his eyes.but i went out to say hi to ed..he grabbed me in a huge hug,which never happens,and he started to bawl..and then i did...then randy,my brother inlaw walked into the garage.saw us...and he started...then my nephew walks in and he goes....we all got a small "knowing" laugh over it later.i did call mom a few minutes ago...she was crying..seems my helper had come over after she heard and they were in the house crying together...she had just lost her son last month when he choked to death at dinner with his girlfriend....
i know yall prolly dont read all this stuff i type..but if ya made it to this point..thanks.....i dont have many people to talk to..so i type crap here.........lol