14th Feb 18. PM.
Flez.
RFC-54.
I'm not sure how much more I can take. Every time I walk out to the kite I feel physically sick. Am I a coward?
Today we were engaged by at least seven Albatross scouts, yellow tails and not new to the wicket. Three of us. We got into it and I brought one down, saw him shatter on the ground. But I took some serious hits myself and the kite felt badly wrong. I dived and jinked and more bullets came flying past me. More hits, the sound like death in my ears, waiting for the savage pain in my body or the kite to suddenly lose a wing, come apart.
I flattened out just above the deck, skidding left and right with bootfuls of rudder, feeling the kite mushy on the stick. I looked behind and there the ******* was, setting himself up for another burst. A river appeared ahead and I flew low down over it, so low I was between the trees lining it. Thinking if I got low enough the hun wouldn't be able to get a clear shot, unless he wanted to risk what I was prepared to risk, ploughing into the water at over 100mph. But he knew his stuff. Shallow dives, take a shot, pull up and repeat. Not particularly accurate but a few hits each time and I knew my goose was cooked if I didn't get out of there soon.
I yanked up and hard right over the trees lining the bank as a forest went past, or as hard as I dared with the kite damaged so badly. She responded reasonably well, but I could feel the stall lurking through the shudder of the stick. So I went, tight against the trees, thinking that if I kept close and went around the forest the hun really would be buggered, having no way to turn inside me for a deflection shot. I must have gone around twice, it was more a woods than a forest, coming back over the river that many times, constantly looking back until I could see him no longer. Then it occurred to me that just maybe I was catching him now. The idea was intoxicating, to suddenly go from the mind of the hunted back to that of the hunter.
I pulled the turn up and right to go over the roof of the woods and there he was, still chasing around the perimeter. I came out on his right rear quarter and gave him a high-deflection burst from about 500ft. Completely missed, but now he flattened out and went into a shallow climb. "I've got you, you *******!" I thought, and then there were more bullets hitting my kite from behind. Two of them! I punted the nose down desperately and skidded right, anything to get out of the hail of lead, and tried to pull up against the edge of the woods again, but the old bird wasn't having it. It was all I could do now to keep her level. Some part of my mind was screaming at me, "don't be up here, don't be going at 100mph, be down there on the ground where it's safe...!" Not panic, the voice was locked up tight in a small room in the back of my head, where it couldn't get out and go running amok through the rest of the house, wrecking the furniture and smashing ornaments.
But enough was enough. As more bullets smashed into the kite I cut the engine and slammed her down onto the ground. There were trees not that far away in front but I didn't care, I just wanted it finished. The kite hit hard and buckled, but seemed to be level and straight. Then the view in front of me filled with flames...I was IN the flames...the kite rolled right, the wings on that side snapping and tearing away and the bumping and shaking and slamming and horrific noise, knocking the breath out of me and spinning my head. Then silence, no flames and desperately clawing at my harness, scrabbling out and running, hard, for the woods. No pain, just the cold sweet air pumping into my lungs as I ran from the horror behind me. Alive, still alive!
So, I found a log, put up my feet, pulled out the old flask and lit up a bally coffin-nail. Then "YOU *******S! GO ON...YOU *******S!!!" Screaming at the hun as they circled and then flew leisurely away. One of the cheeky buggers even gave me a wave. Would he have let me be if I'd chosen to land even earlier? The thought had crossed my mind, repeatedly, but the age of chivalry in this war is no longer a guaranteed thing and I hadn't been prepared to bet my life on it.
I sat there for ages, smoking and drinking until I was quite cut. I thought about the chap I'd put into the ground earlier, and wondered if he'd gone through what I'd just gone through before the life was smashed out of him by the ground. Then I staggered all the way to the aerodrome we'd been fighting over initially, a couple of miles away, shouting and singing and kicking up an awful row all the way. Crashed straight into their mess and demanded more liquor until their chaps settled me down.
They drove me back and Edith is still missing, now officially MIA. He's gone, for good, lying in a woods or at the bottom of a water-filled crater somewhere. This foul bloody war.