I am deeply depressed. Have been for almost a week. I have a wife and two kids, a roof over my head, and some food in the cupboards. I am thankful.
This time of year is always the hardest times for me since all my family has passed away. And the Christmas mood is never cheery. Like it is for most that lose loved ones during these times.
Right now, I have a 6 year old dog that I'm very attached too. Always by my side wanting a pet, a scratch, or to just throw the ball for him so he can bring it back. He is as close to me as one of my kids. A week ago he started to display symptoms of being beat and in dire pain. One minute he was fine, the next he was doubled over and getting succumb to pain that made me cringe. I took my dog to the vet to be examined. They took xrays and gave him a complete examination. After Dr. John finished he called me in. He told me that my dog had two compressed discs and that he would need surgery to repair it. But being as my dog is so active it would likely not last and he would be in the same condition shortly after. Dr. John was not sure how things would turn out. I had decisions to make. Decisions to the tune of $5000.00 to have the procedure done and make my pup better.
....I have been out of work for almost a full two years. Working very little and on part time only. Things are very tight for us, but we're getting by with help of local food banks. So getting the much needed surgery done, that's out of the question as we just can't afford it.
Dr. John told me that there is hope with medications. Steroids, pain meds and anti-inflamatory drugs. He told me that in ten days I would know how my dog was doing and whether he would get through this. Well, like I said earlier, it's already been a week. And a hit and miss one at that. Some days my companion feels real good..others he is hunched like the hunchback of notre dame and in very much pain. Things don't look good. I feel I will have to do something I can not avoid. I love muh dog. But I feel the inevitable euthanizing is going to have to happen. I don't have any options damn it!!
Merry Christmas to me
This time of year is always the hardest times for me since all my family has passed away. And the Christmas mood is never cheery. Like it is for most that lose loved ones during these times.
Right now, I have a 6 year old dog that I'm very attached too. Always by my side wanting a pet, a scratch, or to just throw the ball for him so he can bring it back. He is as close to me as one of my kids. A week ago he started to display symptoms of being beat and in dire pain. One minute he was fine, the next he was doubled over and getting succumb to pain that made me cringe. I took my dog to the vet to be examined. They took xrays and gave him a complete examination. After Dr. John finished he called me in. He told me that my dog had two compressed discs and that he would need surgery to repair it. But being as my dog is so active it would likely not last and he would be in the same condition shortly after. Dr. John was not sure how things would turn out. I had decisions to make. Decisions to the tune of $5000.00 to have the procedure done and make my pup better.
....I have been out of work for almost a full two years. Working very little and on part time only. Things are very tight for us, but we're getting by with help of local food banks. So getting the much needed surgery done, that's out of the question as we just can't afford it.
Dr. John told me that there is hope with medications. Steroids, pain meds and anti-inflamatory drugs. He told me that in ten days I would know how my dog was doing and whether he would get through this. Well, like I said earlier, it's already been a week. And a hit and miss one at that. Some days my companion feels real good..others he is hunched like the hunchback of notre dame and in very much pain. Things don't look good. I feel I will have to do something I can not avoid. I love muh dog. But I feel the inevitable euthanizing is going to have to happen. I don't have any options damn it!!
Merry Christmas to me
